He come never expect...

Its been awhile since last i updated my blog here..rasa sgt sibuk lately ni..
sibuk dgn hal keje, as usual la kan...am started to went home late..but not so late..just around 8-8.30pm everyday..huh..so tired..but have to coz so many works to do..cant avoid it..huhu....but xpe...at least, ade ot, xdela cket sgt rase dpt gaji dis month kan...:D

2-3 days before, i received a few of sms's come from my ex-bf..just wondering why...im shocked at the first place..either i want to reply his sms pr not..at first, i think NO..but my heart say 'just giv him chance'...not chance as be my bf again, sbb he's married..chance to be like before..huhu...

after one sms go to another sms and so on..until he said something that make me curious on him..what is it??? he called me..huh..why he called me...i dont want to hear that voice anymore...but as 'friend', should i??

i pick up the phone...and we're talking...to say hello and ask how im getting on..:)
didn't expect he still remember me..coz die penah ckp dulu..b4 we both officially putus..die msh sygkan aku lg smp bila2..cume in a different way la..syg die pd aku hingga bila2...im appreciate that kind of his feeling..cume syg, he's not mine..he belongs to somebody else..i should let his go..and yes..i already do that..lepaskan dia...its really hard to me, terus trg..
and kalau bole, aku da x nak tau whatever lg ttg die after he's married, but die mtk aku jgn putuskan terus hubungan kami and let we'll be as friend forever..tapi ape yg wat aku nk tergelak kan..die ckp..xdpt aku kt dunia, die tggu aku kt akhirat..what a words...:D

and the worst part is im feel so sad after hear his voice..am crying (xdela ye ye sgt nangis) mata da merah...itu yg pelik..every time mmg mcm tu..itu la klo bole aku xnk tau pape psl die..tp die x nak paham...atau saje x nk paham..

tp aku rase, aku pun x dpt nk lupekan die jgk..sbb jiwa kami sama..mungkin itula yg merapatkan kami..tp sygnye jodoh kami x pnjg..mungkin tuhan da tetapkan yang kami tidak ditakdirkan utk bersama..huhuhuhu

Forget all those sad things, i have to start a new chapter in my life..thanks to god coz telah bukakkan hati aku utk mule berkwn dgn lelaki semula..:D...

for this time being, aku berdoa yg hati aku ni xkan berubah2...cube atasi mslh aku yg takut nk berkwn ngan lelaki tu slowly..:)

ok la, setakat ini saje ape yg mampu aku tulis..sbb tgh free cket ni, itu yg nk update blog..asyik sibuk dgn FB je kan..play some games there, make me addicted..haunted btoll kan Fb ni..
u guys take care..see ya the next entry..

* to my sweet cik zara, x sangka ur day is coming...hope u smile always while waiting to be a such lovely bride to be (biar berseri2 wajah akak k)
since cik zara da x jd my colleagu, can i call u as 'kakak', can i??
and jgn tension2 slalu...okk..hehe